Nursing Psychosis

Have you ever felt like no matter how hard you try or how hard you work it just is not going to be good enough? That is what this semester has been like for me! I have studied my butt off, and worked harder than ever and just feel like no matter what I do it just is not good enough. The thing I have had to ask myself is good enough for who? Is it not good enough for me? Right now I am passing all my classes and I finished my OB class with a B. Not amazing but not bad either! I think sometimes we just need to take a step back and look at life differently. 5 years from now when I am working as a labor and delivery nurse and have a family will I care what grade I made in Med/Surg II? No! Even a year from now when I graduate I won't care what my grade was. So why is it such a big deal? I have no idea!

Maybe I have slipped into this psychotic state of nursing school perfectionism. When I step back life is so much more fun, and I enjoy things more. Isn't that what I should be doing? I think so many times in nursing school you are told "Here are the standards and if you don't meet this you fail" and being faced with that hard truth is tough. So we push ourselves so hard that we are exhausted, not having fun, and frustrated with ourselves because we "are not good enough". Well I don't want to be that way! I want to enjoy every minute of where I am right now. And I do! I had the most amazing 6 weeks of labor and delivery clinical! I was able to figure out exactly what I want to do. I finally found an area of nursing I love more than doing hair! I started my peds roatation and even though my clinical professor is crazy I have already learned a lot and been able to bless a few families by giving them extra attention and care! You really can't beat that!

So other than drowing in studying and school work, not much else has been going on! I have cleared out my spring break to spend time with my family! Yes they are coming in town to see me! I am excited to see them and have a week to relax and spend time with family. It will be a much needed break! I want to encourage you all to take a step back and look at your life and see whose standards are you living up to. Are those really achievable? Do they matter? If not maybe you should relax and enjoy life a little more!