Friends

Recently I have been thinking about how blessed I am to have so many wonderful friends in my life. They are all so different and unique and each one of them brings something so special to my life.


First there is my best friend of all and my husband Jeremy. We have been together for 9 years now and he know me better than anyone else in my life. He can complete my sentences, read my moods, and comfort me when I am upset. He gives me a kick in the tush when I need it and tells me what I need to hear but not necessarily what I want to hear. He makes me laugh and he has seen my truly goofy side. I guess you can say he is the goof to my ball! :) I am so glad God put him in my life, for the rest of my life! I am excited to travel through this journey of life with him and share all our experiences together. I couldn't have never imagined a better husband and best friend for me than him.

Secondly, there is one of my dearest friends Kara. I have only known Kara for about 3 1/2 years but she will never know how much she has blessed my life in such a short amount of time. From the first time I met her she has made me laugh harder than any person I know. She is one of the only people I can truly be myself around and always know with her I will laugh so hard my belly hurts. I have more fun with her than I do with many other people in my life. Other than being amazingly sweet, funny, witty, and absolutely hilarious Kara is thoughtful. She always remembers the little things. She texts me and wishes me luck on every test I have, she remembers when I am stressed out and encourages me through the week. She knows when I am busy, when I am excited about something, or frustrated and she is always there for me! ALWAYS! I can talk to her about anything even if it is something I am struggling with and she will be honest with me and be there for me. She encourages and always has faith in me! Who could ask for a better friend! I hope Kara has been as blessed by our friendship as I have.

Then there is a friend I didn't exactly pick, but God picked for me! My sister! She has been here for me my entire life, whether she likes it or not! When we were little she was one of the only people who could make me laugh when I was sad. She still is one of the funniest people I know! She includes me every time she goes out with her friends! She is great at making people feel comfortable. She has always been there for me, and I know she always will be! Even though Kenzi was put in my life not by my choice I am glad she is in it! My life definitely would not be the same without her!

Then there are friends I have been blessed with in Nursing school. Each of them I am still getting to know but we have developed strong friendships in such a short amount of time. Nursing school pushes you beyond your limits and no one knows this better than other nursing student. We have seen each other in our triumphs and our defeats, through life complications, and have become a family of friends. I am blessed to have each one of these people in my life!

Megan is one of my friends I have known my entire life and I am soo blessed to have her in my life. She has always been there for me and even though I don't get to see her everyday or talk to her as much as I would like she still will be there for me every time I need her.

I have so many friends I have been blessed with and so many I did not have time to mention in this post. Some I have known my entire life and I know will be there for the rest of my life and some I have only known a short amount of time. When I look around at the people that surround me I am proud to call each one of them my friends and I am blessed to have such an amazing community of people in my life!

Nursing Psychosis

Have you ever felt like no matter how hard you try or how hard you work it just is not going to be good enough? That is what this semester has been like for me! I have studied my butt off, and worked harder than ever and just feel like no matter what I do it just is not good enough. The thing I have had to ask myself is good enough for who? Is it not good enough for me? Right now I am passing all my classes and I finished my OB class with a B. Not amazing but not bad either! I think sometimes we just need to take a step back and look at life differently. 5 years from now when I am working as a labor and delivery nurse and have a family will I care what grade I made in Med/Surg II? No! Even a year from now when I graduate I won't care what my grade was. So why is it such a big deal? I have no idea!

Maybe I have slipped into this psychotic state of nursing school perfectionism. When I step back life is so much more fun, and I enjoy things more. Isn't that what I should be doing? I think so many times in nursing school you are told "Here are the standards and if you don't meet this you fail" and being faced with that hard truth is tough. So we push ourselves so hard that we are exhausted, not having fun, and frustrated with ourselves because we "are not good enough". Well I don't want to be that way! I want to enjoy every minute of where I am right now. And I do! I had the most amazing 6 weeks of labor and delivery clinical! I was able to figure out exactly what I want to do. I finally found an area of nursing I love more than doing hair! I started my peds roatation and even though my clinical professor is crazy I have already learned a lot and been able to bless a few families by giving them extra attention and care! You really can't beat that!

So other than drowing in studying and school work, not much else has been going on! I have cleared out my spring break to spend time with my family! Yes they are coming in town to see me! I am excited to see them and have a week to relax and spend time with family. It will be a much needed break! I want to encourage you all to take a step back and look at your life and see whose standards are you living up to. Are those really achievable? Do they matter? If not maybe you should relax and enjoy life a little more!